[Episode five opens up on the morgue with the scene of Mary waking up and escaping into the night barely alive and frightened, after that the focus returns to The Room of Jillian and her friends getting ready for the Halloween ball at the town hall hosted by the school]
Jillian: This dress is the best thing I have ever bought in my entire life
Lillith: you said the same thing about your vibrator
Jillian: make that second best
Lillith: remind me again what your supposed to be this is a costume ball you know , that means like scary or dramatic not slutty and normal
Jillian: umm hello im going as ke$ha duh
Lillith: well honey if anyone could pull off being a vomit haired knock off of gaga it would be you, not much of a costume though
Jillian: well then party snob who exactly are you going as, medieval Barbie?
Lillith: haha so funny, I’m red riding hood, just a little more edgy and in keeping with the times and such, I make it look quite fabulous don’t you think
Jillian: whatever don’t diss my costume just because no ones going to know who you are
[cut back to Gabriel and Andrew getting ready for the party]
Andrew: are you sure you should go to this you just got out of physical therapy I mean what if you fall
Gabriel: Andrew I love you, but I need a boyfriend not a father
Andrew: what happened to us, at the beginning it was so happy and then it just got fucked up
Gabriel: I happened to us okay, a part of me is always going to want you but the rest of me feels sullied by the fact that you made me wait so long just like… nevermind
Andrew: what were you going to say
Gabriel: do you remember back in eighth grade when you me kyle and Brandon were in the same class
Andrew: yes vaguely but yes, whatever happened to that, I mean you kind of hung out hardcore with Brandon and kyle and me from time to time but I didn’t get close to you until end of ninth grade
Gabriel: that’s because Kyle and Brandon were best friends and I was head over heels in love with him, I think that’s why I fell for you because that year when he moved on to whatever state hes in, a week after I came out, you were the only one who would still talk to me
Andrew: and now you and I are together and kyles a drug dealer and Brandons living his life far away from you and I
Gabriel: im starting to think maybe im not really in love with you, it doesn’t feel the way I felt when I was with Brandon, its strong but not the same, maybe im just in love with what you did and bonded to you, but its an artificial feeling
Andrew: that doesn’t make sense
Gabriel: and this is why I think what I think, you don’t understand me, and I think now that the excitement of chasing you and all that mess is over and im out of the honeymoon phase, I feel like perhaps things are going wrong for a reason, it’s a fabricated feeling, its not true love, its friendship and sexual passion
Andrew: what are you saying, I know I messed up with you and your right I shouldn’t have left you when the chips were down and I really shouldn’t have tried to break it off to go be with someone else like I did but I thought you forgave me for that
Gabriel: I did, im just saying, I think now that my visions clear its best to break for now, if I feel like it was a mistake later and its meant to be we can always pick up where we left off, but I feel like, its not right, I want the real thing, this isn’t my happy ending, its just a really good part of the story and I want to walk away before it becomes a part I don’t want to remember.
[blackout storyline change, commercial]
[open up on a bathroom as the camera zooms in theres blood on the floor in a little trail it leads to a leg, traveling up the leg its revealed that the blood is coming from jillian who is cutting her arms with a razor blade]
Jillian: I will be pretty [ she speaks to the mirror]
Jillian: look at you, you fat piece of shit what good are you, oh that’s right, you fuck everything and do mountains of drugs, who are you kidding your not beautiful your just a disaster in designer heels
[she drys off her arm and covers it in a bandage and covers the bandage with makeup]
Jillian: good as new
[she gets her coat grabs her purse , puts a bag of cocaine from her dresser in it zips it closed and walks out the door, she then sees Lillith in the hall outside her door]
Lillith: are you about ready? Weve been waiting downstairs for two hours now
Jillian: yeah you know just had to take care of something
Lillith: whats that on your arm? Is that blood
Jillian: yeah I had an accident with my razor while shaving, noone likes arm hair you know its alright just a little booboo we can go now
Lillith: okay then ill get the car started
[black out /commercial break]
[fade back in on the party the annual Halloween costume ball, Gabriel enters dressed as Adam( from the book of Genesis) he runs into Jordan who is dressed as ziggy stardust]
Jordan: hey you long time no see
Gabriel: how much have you had to drink? I can smell it on you
Jordan: not much
Gabriel: lead me to the supply, I need to be inebriated
Jordan: rough day huh?
Gabriel: rough life
Jordan: well im here if you want to talk
Gabriel: I cant really talk to anyone anymore, I thought I could but, noone can ever fill the void of your first love
Jordan: that sort of what I wanted to talk to you about, things seem a lot different since I moved back here
Gabriel: okay seriously do you need a trashcan or anything cause you seem pretty hammered
Jordan: no im not that drunk ive had a few but im not seeing spots or talking out of my head
Gabriel: okay explain this to me
Jordan: you don’t remember me do you?
Gabriel: of course I do your Jordan how could I forget you
Jordan: no I mean before I moved back when I used to go by my middle name
Gabriel: yeah im not getting all this perhaps I need to be intoxicated to understand it
Jordan: in good time, don’t worry just sit down with me.
Gabriel: okay
Jordan: a few weeks ago wasn’t the first time you met me, or the first time I met you I kind of wanted to tell you at the party, but I didn’t put the pieces together, I didn’t think I would fall for the same person by accident, it wasn’t until you properly introduced yourself that I even realized who you were, and then I remembered how you looked back then, times changed both of us but, I still remember you
Gabriel: are you ….. [Jordan cuts him off]
Jordan: my middle name is Brandon, surely you remember me before I moved away to California, back in eighth grade, you were my first boyfriend, back when I was still in the closet, you would fall asleep with your head on my chest everyday, we held hands under the table.
Gabriel: Oh my god
Jordan: is this all making sense to you now?
Gabriel: no wonder I felt so close to you the moment we met
Jordan: I didn’t remember until the day of the party and then I put the pieces together.
Gabriel: I was just talking about this earlier today, when I
Jordan: when what?
Gabriel: when I broke up with Andrew, of course come to think of it im not sure if we were ever officially together or not but it feels like I broke up with him
Jordan: I don’t want to come between you and Andrew
Gabriel: no I broke up with him because I only latched on to him after you left, when I was heartbroken and depressed, I thought I’d never see you again, and now I don’t even know what to call you anymore
[meanwhile something across the room grabs their attention, someone starts screaming its Lollie]
Lollie: someone come help quick, shes bleeding she’s bleeding she needs help
[Gabriel goes to run to her as hes running flashes of jillian in the bathroom cutting herself and swallowing pills, are intermittently cut in in a strobe-ing effect]
[blackout/commercial break]
[cut back in on the bathroom floor Jillian is passed out in a pool of blood Gabriel gets to her and tries frantically to wake her as the sirens come in the distance flashbacks of her experience of the dance]
[cut back to flashback of the arrival at the dance, Jillian goes to get drinks where she meets Kyle, who escorts her to the back where she gets raped and then gets up collects herself and goes to the bathroom and attempts her suicide]
[after the cops and the ambulance comes and take Jillian away that leaves, Lillith and Gabriel in the parking lot of the dance to commiserate on the hood of a car splitting a bottle of gin]
Lillith: I thought something was wrong with her this whole night and she just denied it
Gabriel: I just don’t understand why she did it, what was so wrong with her
Lilith: you know Jilli she would never tell us if something were wrong, never did, the entire time we grew up
Gabriel: is it sad this is the most time we’ve spent together since I came out why is that?
Lillith: I don’t know I think its because I secretly always had a thing for Andrew, but as we all know on that one now, you were right all along
Gabriel: yeah you can have him
Lillith: what, but isn’t he like the love of your life or something?
Gabriel: no unfortunately, I just got so caught up in thinking he was going to be my knight in shining armor that I forgot he’s just a man, he cant move mountains, cant stop a speeding train, cant tell me why im so lost, until a month ago he couldn’t even admit he was gay
Lillith: that sucks, im no better honestly, I still haven’t had a relationship worth the while, I even hooked up with a total stranger in the pool house at the last party I went to, never even got his name
Gabriel: yeah I remember my first beer too
Lillith: shut up dork!
Gabriel: I know what you mean though its hard, I just feel like I have no purpose no direction
Lillith: you’ve got to quit living in the past though
Gabriel: I don’t think im ready to yet
Lillith: why not
Gabriel: because sometimes the past is worth reliving
Lillith: im not sure I follow
Gabriel: you remember eighth grade, well my first love finally showed up again, I was too blind to even know it, I waited for him forever I finally gave up, and then Andrew was there and I fell for him because I was vulnerable and he was there he understood and it turned into this whole fucked up situation and now, I can see it for exactly what it was, but I don’t know, I always said a part of me would always be waiting for Brandon, and
Lillith: wait, wait, wait, Brandon! Since when have you spoken to Brandon?
Gabriel: ever since he moved back and started going by his first name, I didn’t even recognize him and I still was attracted to him like a moth to a flame, I wonder if that means something?
Lillith: I couldn’t tell you but id definitely say its worth….exploring
[fade out commercial break]
[opens exactly where the previous episode left off
Gabriel gets off the hood of the car as Jordan walks out of the building his back is turned to him, Gabriel checks his phone which reads “one last dance?” he turns around to see Jordan and his face lights up]
Lillith: ill uh, geez is that the time id better be off probably need to go down to the station fill out some paper work about all this have fun later
[summertime by my chemical romance begins to play as they run to meet each other across the lot and they embrace and begin to dance in one circle in the parking lot, and share one very sensuous kiss]
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